Friday, December 21, 2007
It's often hard to ask for help when you have all these mixed feelings about your infertility. Having to face the fact that you need help getting pregnant is a hard and bitter pill to swallow. To the outside world you do not want to seem like you are handicapped in some way both physically and emotionally. So you sometimes have to put on a strong face because no one likes to feel weak. Fortunately, the one area I have no problem asking for help is these injections. I am a total wimp when it comes to giving myself shots so my husband does all the injecting. I truly need to thank him for this or else we would never get through an IVF cycle. This relationship of poker and pokee has just become part of our many natural partnerships like when I overcook cookies, he eats all the burnt parts, or on long trips he does all the driving, or when we play our favorite board game he always sets up the board.
Other kinds of help have been less natural. A part of me for a long while had a hard time accepting that I had to be one of these women who can't do something naturally. I've had to force myself to understand when I need help during an IVF so I don't completely lose myself in the madness. So now after two rounds of IVF under my belt, I don't hold back on help. I get help from my husband, I get help from my family, I get help from my clinic, I get help from my friends, I get help from the internet, I get help from acupuncture, I get help from vitamins, I get help from fertility yoga, I get help from chocolate cakes, I get help from spas, I get help from blogging. I think you owe it to yourself to get help from anything that will make you feel better.