Thursday, January 31, 2008
Mission: Get Lost
Little Miss Positive has a difficult first mission assignment:
IVF patient finds out she has the blood clotting disorder Lupus anticoagulant. How do you keep IVF patient positive after her first major bomb since the miscarriage?
Little Miss Positive knew this would take much more than snuggling next to me. This would take more tactical skill. The war has just taken an ugly turn and more reinforcements are needed. This means full-on mental escape. She says firmly, "We need to go to the island of LOST."
So she began her first adventure in distraction whizzing me off to the island where not unlike us infertiles a bunch of people crashed and wait for rescue. They, like us, don't know if or when they will get off the island. Weird shit happens all the time. There are no answers which frustrates everyone. No one can get pregnant on the island.
Wait a minute. I say back to her, "Get lost Little Miss Positive! I have a blood clotting disorder that may or may not cause me to miscarry. Now if I get pregnant I have to inject Lovenox everyday for the ENTIRE pregnancy. Oh no, it doesn't stop at the colossal feat of getting pregnant. Now staying pregnant is going to be a whopping ordeal. No break from the agony of shots for this IVF girl. My body wants me to feeeeeel the pain all the way to the very end."
"Are you finished now?" she said as I concluded my whirl of anger. As you might imagine Little Miss Positive had a lot of work to do today. Darkness reigned over my mind. So she had to remind me that many women use this drug; it is better to know this now than after another loss; Maybe this will be the key missing piece to my infertility puzzle? She also politely reminded me that I have several people coming over tonight to watch the 2 hour premiere of LOST, so pull it together. As much as I would like to sit and stew over this more, she's right. I have a fun-filled evening planned and all I can do at this very moment is spend an evening getting lost in whether anyone on LOST will stop being lost and finally be found.
Stay tuned for more adventures of Little Miss Positive. Posted weekly here on Channel IVF, The Art of Being Infertile.