Thursday, January 31, 2008

Mission: Get Lost



Little Miss Positive has a difficult first mission assignment:

IVF patient finds out she has the blood clotting disorder Lupus anticoagulant. How do you keep IVF patient positive after her first major bomb since the miscarriage? 

Little Miss Positive knew this would take much more than snuggling next to me. This would take more tactical skill. The war has just taken an ugly turn and more reinforcements are needed. This means full-on mental escape. She says firmly, "We need to go to the island of LOST." 

So she began her first adventure in distraction whizzing me off to the island where not unlike us infertiles a bunch of people crashed and wait for rescue. They, like us, don't know if or when they will get off the island. Weird shit happens all the time. There are no answers which frustrates everyone. No one can get pregnant on the island. 

Wait a minute. I say back to her, "Get lost Little Miss Positive! I have a blood clotting disorder that may or may not cause me to miscarry. Now if I get pregnant I have to inject Lovenox everyday for the ENTIRE pregnancy. Oh no, it doesn't stop at the colossal feat of getting pregnant. Now staying pregnant is going to be a whopping ordeal. No break from the agony of shots for this IVF girl. My body wants me to feeeeeel the pain all the way to the very end."

"Are you finished now?" she said as I concluded my whirl of anger. As you might imagine Little Miss Positive had a lot of work to do today. Darkness reigned over my mind. So she had to remind me that many women use this drug; it is better to know this now than after another loss; Maybe this will be the key missing piece to my infertility puzzle? She also politely reminded me that I have several people coming over tonight to watch the 2 hour premiere of LOST, so pull it together. As much as I would like to sit and stew over this more, she's right. I have a fun-filled evening planned and all I can do at this very moment is spend an evening getting lost in whether anyone on LOST will stop being lost and finally be found.

Stay tuned for more adventures of Little Miss Positive. Posted weekly here on Channel IVF, The Art of Being Infertile.

11 comments:

Not on Fire said...

Yeah, I did Lovenox for both of my pregnancies. It sucks.

Sorry for the bad news.

Fertilize Me said...

I am on lovenox currently - I will be until 30 weeks. it gets easier with ice ;)

Tracy said...

For what it's worth, I'm on Lovenox, too, and it's been a breeze. I don't even use ice. It's quick and relatively painless. The biggest hassle, honestly, is having to run to the drugstore when I need more of the preloaded syringes.

Oh, and the sexy line of bruises on my tummy.

Melanie said...

I don't know squat about Lovenox, but I do know that you're a riot. I enjoyed the first adventure. And on a serious not, hang in there.

Melanie said...

Um, note, I mean.

Duck said...

I thought it was funny that no one on the island can get knocked up too.... hmm.

Mrs.X said...

What did they always say at the end of the GI Joe cartoon (which I only watched because it was right before the Smurfs) - knowing is half the battle? You'll get through this, like everything else.

Oh, and I never figured out what the other half of the battle was.

luna said...

I know it sounds scary, but the lovenox apparently works wonders. I've heard the ice helps too. good luck! ~luna

TABI said...

Thanks everyone for the support! I found out on top of lupus anti coagulant, I also have elevated levels for anti phosphatydylserine, and mthfr (just one copy). So I am more at peace with taking the Lovenox and just hope I manage to get pregnant so we can actually see if it makes a difference!

Aurelia said...

Don't forget the baby aspirin. It helps with the immunological stuff in a different way than the lovenox does. Both matter.

Take care, the shots may be a pain, but they really are like a miracle for me, so it maybe worth it in the end.

Ahuva Batya said...

Your post always makes me smile. You have a great attitude even at the dark moments. I think it's much better that you know, so you can be preventative when you get pregnant!