Monday, February 2, 2009

The Little Refrigerator that Could


This is a story about how a wee little thing can have as much power as a giant. We all face this battle everyday through IVF. We feel tiny in the face of the mountain of unknowns. We are constantly the David against the Goliaith of infertility.

So once upon a time, an IVF cycle began. But what would an IVF cycle be without a little panic and some snafus? Though all began well, I have already survived two minor earthquakes in my efforts to make this cycle run smoothly. Firstly, I jumped the gun and ended up starting lupron a day early as I woke up believing it was a Friday but it was actually a Thursday. In my many seasoned years of IVF, I have never once taken a drug off schedule. I must be really out of my head, but thankfully no collateral damage. Secondly, after a big arm wrestle with my insurance company, I finally get my drugs mailed to me. The day they arrive my behemoth size sub zero refrigerator (that most New Yorkers drool over when they come to my apartment) went kaputz! After 10 years of never having a problem, the temperature slowly but surely was going down. Repair man after repair man came and went and it kept on breaking. It got to a point where food we could do without, but not my IVF drugs! Gonal F, Microdose Lupron, and Ovridel were also going to go kaputz if I didn't think fast! Thankfully, a little refrigerator my husband gave me years ago while were dating came to save the day.

There are many morals to this little tale my video tells:

*I never admired those second refrigerators that people who live in houses often have in their basements or garages, until now.

* Love travels all through time and the universe. Love made my husband (then boyfriend) 8 years ago buy me a little refrigerator for my office as a little "romantic" present. At the time it was just a funny gift from my gadget-freak boyfriend who wanted me to always have cold soda ready for me in my office. Who knew that some day it might save our future child.

* "Great things are done by a series of small things brought together." -Vincent Van Gogh (I started my stims, now just a million more small things to go!)

* "Things turn out best for the people who make the best out of the way things turn out." - Art Linkletter

* We all remember the mantra from this classic children's story. So please, everyone who is doing IVF and battling infertility, hold virtual hands and repeat after me, "I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN ,I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN,I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN, I THINK I CAN!

8 comments:

Nadine said...

Tabi - I believe he travelled back in time to buy you the fridge to save the cycle (I'm a believer)... I've always said I think i can over and over, just baby steps.
Can't wait till transfer - we will be in the depths of the 2ww wait together, wish you lived closer!

Dora said...

Brilliant! I think I can!

JellyBelly said...

gotta love the mini fridge!!!!

i think i can, i think i can, i think i can!!!

Leo said...

OMG I so love your blog. You are brilliant and being on my final IVF steps this truly is an inspiration. WE THINK WE CAN! Keep spreading the word!!!

Shinejil said...

I think I can, too!

Yes we can!

[cue can-can music]

So glad your hubby's prescience saved the meds. I'm cheering for you this cycle.

alicia said...

i think i can i think i can!

so awesome, i Love that story!

Sanda said...

yay for the little fridge that could saving the day!! happy stimming! I think you can too - scratch that - I know you can!!! :)

Andie said...

I think I can, I think I can!!!

More importantly, I know YOU can!

Love your hubby's little fridge that saved the day!

Catching up on your blog, and just thrilled for you that you are underway.