On this very early morning a year ago A. gave birth to our beautiful daughter. It's unbelievable still to me that we managed to come out of this journey with a family. We are truly blessed. As time used to move for me at a torturous snail's pace when waiting for betas or periods or fertility reports, this year has had a sort of stop clock feeling. It's gone lightening fast at moments and then very long and exhausting at others. The first 3 months in some ways felt like a lifetime and in other ways a total blur. The 4 month to 6 month period was fast as hell. The 6 month to 8 month was a tough spell of trying to survive on the accumulated lack of sleep and trying to find outlets for myself. The 8 month to 12 month period was filled with joys of watching my daughter move to a new level of awareness and watching myself come to terms with the not so perfect daily life of motherhood. Let's see what the next 12 months bring as we bring another member into our family. It's becoming more and more exciting to think of our family growing and for a new person to enter our lives. As always, it's will be juggling act, but an act worth every effort.
A journal of life with IVF and whatever unconventional baby-making methods that work
Whatever art form it takes—photo, video, graphic or craft—some predicaments in life need more than words to express the truth. IVF is not just a medical treatment, it is a way of life. Now surrogacy is my road. I intend to be a parent, however it works. This blog is my commitment to writing and visually creating what I mean by this. There may be an art to getting pregnant but there is equally an art to being infertile.
3 unmedicated IUIs- BFN
2 IUIs with clomid- BFN
IVF#1 - BFP - but ectopic
IVF#2 - BFP - but miscarried
IVF#3- BFP - but another ectopic
IVF#4 - BFP- but chemical
IVF#5 w/GC - BFN
IVF#6 w/GC and DE - BFP!!!
Baby Girl Born February 2010!
Frozen Cycle w/GC Nov 2010- BFP!
Sibling Due date- July 31, 2011
Diagnosed with blood clotting disorders- elevated levels of
lupus anti coagulant, anti phosphatydylserine, and mthfr (one copy). Who the hell knows what's wrong, no one can really figure this out.